I have such good ideas that I follow through with and then the moment that I stop. I stop. Then it becomes so difficult for me to get back into it again.

I would love to homeschool my children. Afterall, the teachings of the world do not have my children’s best intentions; and I am working towards preparing them for taking on the world with firm faith in their Heavenly Father.

I also have a very difficult time with following through with my ideas when others are telling me that I should not. Why do I give so much power to other people when bringing up my children is entirely up to me and my husband. I am upset with myself because I wanted to homeschool my children, and my very own husband was on board with me. However, I changed our minds because I had doubted myself and allowed another individual’s contradicting outlook overshadow my true desire.

At the moment my daughter is having a hard time with listening in school. I know she means well. But she is a child who needs individual attention. She is also very free spirited and does not respond well to too many expectations. Am I a bad parent to be upset with her desire of not caring to listen to the teacher’s authority? Am I bad parent for not really knowing how to go about getting her to cooperate at just 5 years old?

Pardon me but I feel like I am failing my child more by letting her have it at school and at home when she is just a child who does not function the same way another child may function at her age. I think it’s draining for the both of us.

I need a major reset. I need you God. Please help me to get myself together and be confident in my decisions when it comes to my children. In Jesus name, Amen.